I’m not one for big announcements and it feels kind of weird for me to share this way, but we are expecting our 8th child! It’s weird having to share this special moment and having the opposite thoughts about it - thus the episode title. 

I have not talked about it a ton, but I had a miscarriage after my first boy. It hasn’t affected me a lot in my life however I didn’t realize that this is how it was for me - having to experience a new pregnancy - and how it is different for me than it is for others.

We talked about Jen Burgard's story and how she came to know about grief. Jen opened up and shared her first grief experience in her younger years. The grief she had experienced in the year 2017 when she was pregnant with her second child. Tune in, as she shares her experience on the day her water broke and was suddenly rushed to have an emergency C-section and the aftermath of that event.

Depression can be scary for those who are wanting to help you, and they might worry if you don’t get help soon, or don’t do anything that you will just stay there forever. And it’s definitely possible that you will stay there if you don’t allow yourself to move through the depression and to be in it when it’s there, but then to take steps to get out of it if it doesn’t lift for you when you allow yourself to be there.

The key to this is fully allowing yourself to be there without judgment. Allowing yourself to feel apathy. Feeling the disinterest, that you just don’t care anymore. And be there, knowing that this doesn’t last forever and that this is a part of grief.

I want to encourage you to search for joy in the ways you can.

Often, when a mom feels joy, she can immediately feel guilty that how she is having any joy because her child died. How can she laugh when your baby is dead? She’s a horrible mother for laughing, does this mean she is forgetting?

So many thoughts can race through your brain if you find any sort of joy.
And yet, joy, laughter, and lightness can be the things that fill you up so that you can ride the next waves of grief. If you don’t allow any joy in, it just gets heavier and heavier and you can start to wonder what’s the point and purpose. Well, you can wonder that no matter why.

In today’s episode, we are joined by my friend, Marisa Koivisto. Join us as Marisa tells her story of her experience with grief and loss. The time when she was alone without support from people - being isolated from friends, family, and church - as she and her family lived far while her husband was serving in the US Navy. She shared her thoughts on realizing what really matters in life, how to move forward, and how self-care can be so meaningful.

We are all delusional.

This idea is what keeps coming up for me.
How do you see the world around you? Your imagination might be playing, and we make up things in our minds. You question whether this thing is a reality or not.

You may think you are being delusional but, in most cases, you are not. The best part of being delusional is having two options: being delusional in your own suffering or learning how to live and carry your grief.

Welcome to another episode of the Grieving Moms Podcast. In today’s episode, I will share what I learned at Grieving Moms Haven Retreat. Tune in, as I share the lessons and the experiences, and what we did during the retreat.

Gloria has always dreamed about being a mom, folding her cute laundry, and having so much love in her life. But fast forward to May of 2012 when her daughter was born, and it was the last thing she thought it would be. Gloria felt so disconnected. She disconnected from her daughter, from her life, from herself. Gloria felt a lot of heaviness from that year onwards.