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When you lose a child

”I’m just done. Ready to be done with this life and move on to the next. So sick of the sadness, the stress, the anxiety, the anger, the snappiness. No one else understands, everyone wants to try but they have no clue how awful each day actually is. I guess I wouldn’t want others to understand either, but it sure makes you feel alone”.

Does this feel familiar?

We all want to ignore death until it can no longer be ignored. When you lose someone close to you, you realize how close death is to every one of us. I’m on a journey called grief, and I want to invite you, to join me. We are on this same road, though we have our own stories. I want you to know that your story matters, and your pain matters. You are not alone.

 

This is a picture of my daughter. Her name was Aria Faye. She died when she was 15 months old, and after finding her I’ve struggled with PTSD and anxiety. It’s been a rough couple of years, but ultimately I want to bring HOPE to other grieving families. It’s possible to learn to live with grief, to get help, and live a joyful and full life. The light is completely out in the tunnel right now, but if I can encourage you to keep going, and slowly that light can be seen.

I’m not saying grief ever goes away, because it doesn’t, but it becomes a companion in your life. It says you’ve loved and you’ve lost. It shows you that you are human, and being human is having pain. Please join me on this journey of grief, you don’t need to do all of it alone.

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Each Day is a new day

You can get through the hard things

 

Is Grief all my life is?

I was 23 when Aria died. You were probably a different age, but you probably wonder the same thing as me. Is this all my life is going to consist of? Is my life really over? How in the world do I go on without my child?

I know deeply all those questions, as I asked myself them many, many times. I was kind of in shock. I felt so young to already be burying my child. I was too little to have a child, and know the pain of burying that child as well. It felt so unfair! I think any age is too young to bury a child- it’s not the natural order of things. We expect to die before our children.

To read my full blog post on this subject GO HERE

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About Megan

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Hey there I’m Megan

Most days you can find me working on something new, be it, knitting, woodwork, learning about non-toxic living, reading, habit retraining, or working out, I can’t seem to stay focused on one particular thing for a long time. I am at home taking care of and teaching my 4 children that are at home with me. I also take care of our home and strive to love my husband and family in the best possible way I know how.

I have had many experiences in my life that have shaped me who I am today. One of the biggest ones being that our daughter Aria passed away in May of 2016. That has been by far the biggest challenge and trial we have had to work through as a family, as a couple, and for myself. I have struggled with weight and emotionally overeating since a teenager, I deal with anxiety off and on in my life, and after my daughter died, I struggled really bad with PTSD(Post-traumatic-stress-disorder). All these things shape my life, but they do not define my life. I see them now, as things that have happened to me, and I can take them and learn from them. They have been very difficult, but I have grown and learned so much. Many things I have just had to put in God’s hands and know he is taking care of them. If you want to learn more, you can see my full page HERE!

Keep in touch below! Each week I share my new blog posting, and little words or encouragement to get you back on your feet and ready to take on the world again!